another eve

February 19th, 2008 by barbarina

I hate Feb. 19. It reminds me that I’m going to be a year older the next day. It drags on like forever and the anxiety that goes with it builds up like a skyscraper that’s nowhere near collapsing. I hate it.

This birthday eve is particularly annoying. My plan to go out with my friends and hold a "salubong" at Martini Bar was thwarted by some hideous flu I’ve been nursing since Friday. I talked to my friends over the phone the whole day and they all agreed that I sound like a dude. Heck, even my boyfriend said so. No wonder he’s not calling.

Looking back, I just started hating my birthday eve when I was about to turn 25 (go figure). Feb. 19 fell on a Sunday and at around 8 p.m., I started making panic calls to a couple of friends. I and A were nice enough to spend a few hours with me and help me cure my temporary insanity with a bottle of red wine and a box of chocolates at the risk of getting caught for vagrancy on UP grounds.

Last year was uneventful. I spent it staring at my laptop and trying to come up with a blog entry similar to what I’m doing now.

If there’s something that got me excited tonight, it’s learning that my next three birthdays fall on a weekend. That, and AirAsia’s new flight to Vientiane and Yangon. It’s too late to be planning now, but I wonder where I’m headed when I turn 28.

I have an hour and a half to go, which means I can still make peace with a special person before I become older than him. Or make that four hours. After all, I was born at 2:30 a.m.

Cursed (?)

October 15th, 2007 by barbarina

I hope not, though I seriously feel like I’ve been damned for some reason.

About six weeks ago, I woke up and saw a couple of pimples on my forehead, which I simply attributed to hormones because it was that time of the month. But the tiny red bumps haven’t stopped propping up since, and now they’re taking over my face.

I seriously, seriously look scary. At least I don’t have to spend for a  Halloween costume anymore.

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There’s no fireman in the house..

September 27th, 2007 by barbarina

From BusinessWorld (where else?)

Vol. XXI, No. 41
Friday-Saturday, September 21-22, 2007 | MANILA, PHILIPPINES

Focus

Pole position

Like the other women, Grace (not her real name) could only describe her first time with one word — painful.

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Her awkward movements were a tell-tale sign that she had not done anything like it before. While she tried to look sensual, she could not help but wince in distress at the pressure on her limbs as she tried pull her body up and to put her legs in the proper position.

In the end, the creamy white skin on her arms and inner thighs had turned red and felt sore. Her white fitted top had sweat marks.

It was a good workout.

And like her friends in the same dance class, Grace is no longer a pole dancing virgin.

Pole dancing in the Philippines

Initially too shy to be interviewed, Grace immediately left the room after the pole dancing class. When she finally did agree to answer a few questions, she requested anonymity and asked the photographer not take pictures of her.

"My colleagues may lose their respect for me," she said after knowing that the story would come out in a business paper that is widely circulated in Makati, where she works.

It is a pretty common belief that pole dancing is nothing but a sleazy act that is to be confined to strip bars, particularly in a largely conservative country like the Philippines.

This misconception turned dance professional Ed Aniel into a reluctant pole dance instructor. A former member of the Adrenaline Dancers, Mr. Aniel received an offer from a film director to learn how to pole dance and eventually give lessons.

"Filipinos are super conservative. Why would I go into a career that’s half-baked? I decided to introduce it as a fitness program to show that this may be sexy but it is also a form of exercise," Mr. Aniel said.

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Instructor Ed Aniel shows advanced pole moves

The popularity of pole dancing is on the rise. Mr. Aniel initially offered the program in Stomps Dance Studio (850-9029) in BF Homes Parañaque. Today, he also holds classes in Movement Studio (721-7711 or 0917-8845227) in San Juan. From a class of just five students for a thrice a week program, Mr. Aniel already had to double the number of classes as the number of students grows.

The basics

Mr. Aniel said Grace’s discomfort during her first attempt at pole dancing is normal but noted that her grip was strong for a first-timer. The instructor said everybody goes through the awkward phase.

"It’s really the biggest challenge. Students are always shy the first time. That’s why I designed a 15-minute warm-up that helps one start building confidence," Mr. Aniel said.

The warm-up is composed of the usual stretches to loosen up the muscles in the shoulders, arms, hips, and legs — done in a more sensual way. It ends with students turning towards the mirror and giving themselves a naughty slap on the butt.

Among the basic steps is the lift, which is done while one is on tiptoes with arms stretched upwards and hands gripping the pole tightly. One then pulls her body up, folds her legs and keeps the position for as long as she can. This works the muscles in the arms while at the same time tightening the muscles in the abdomen.

"From that basic step, one can already explore different poses like the split," Mr. Aniel said.

Another fundamental move is the side stretch where one supports herself by holding the pole with one hand and keeping both feet at the base of the pole while letting the body fall sideways. This prepares one for a spin around the pole.

Mr. Aniel also teaches students how to defy gravity through leg- and foot-locking. The facility at Movement allows one to go up 10 feet off the floor. Mr. Aniel himself once performed with a 30-foot pole during a show.

"The less clothes [you wear], the better. It’s not really the grip that supports you but the friction created between the pole and the skin," Mr. Aniel said.

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Skin on pole contact is what keeps a dancer suspended

The belles of the pole

Contrary to the notion that pole dancing is for performers in sleazy bars, the activity has actually attracted women in different careers.

Grace, for instance, is an information technology consultant. The friend who introduced her to pole dancing, Norma Ramos, is a ballet teacher.

"It’s really interesting because you can interpret the music in many ways. You need to be graceful, strong, and yet sexy at the same time," said Ms. Ramos, who just finished her second session during the interview.

She said she was inspired by the improvements she saw in another friend, Dr. Maria Socorro Antonette Magadia.

Dr. Magadia is with the dental team of Beverly Hills 6750 Cosmetic Surgery and Skin Institute.

"All the clothes I wore on my first week were tight-fitting, but now they’re a little loose. I have been pole dancing for only two months and my abs are already toned. I used to get size 30 pairs but now I’ve started buying in size 26," Ms. Magadia said.

She added that she has also lost 10 pounds since she started pole dancing.

Beyond body sculpting, businesswoman Judy Gutierrez found that pole dancing is a way for her to fulfill one of the the verses in the Bible on how a woman can be a good wife to her husband.

"Our pastor said one should strive to be a better wife. Sometimes when a woman has kids, she just focuses on being a mother and forgets that she is still a wife. We are taught to be creative as wives. We can do this [pole dancing], or invest in lingerie, use whips or uniforms — and there’s nothing wrong with that as long as it is done in the confines of marriage," Ms. Gutierrez said.

Pia Casequin agrees, saying that her husband loves the fact that she is taking up pole dancing. She might even have a pole installed in their house soon.

"It really boosts confidence," she said, adding that even her doctor is surprised that she is burning fat twice as fast as the other patients who had liposuction at the same time that she had the procedure done on her.

Ladies who do the pole may receive criticism from their friends or even attacks from the conservatives, but no one will stop them from climbing new heights for the sake of fitness and fun.

Of love and other demons (just to borrow a marquez title..)

September 17th, 2007 by barbarina

Love, love, love.. I’m not so clueless anymore.. :D

http://www.secret-loves.com/index.php?test=1027503

Why not?

September 15th, 2007 by barbarina

"I want a guy who tells me he can’t stop thinking about me, who sings to me even when he can’t, and who can break my heart.. but would never dream of doing it."

- Inday, nag eemote ng tanungin ng kaibigang katulong kung bakit hanggang ngayon wala pang boyfriend.

What your sign says about you..

September 9th, 2007 by barbarina
ZODIAC SIGNS UNCENSORED

(I hate chains but this is too funny to pass up.. :D besides, why would I want five years of bad luck? haha..)

Once you have opened this bulletin, there’s no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs, with traits from a book written 35 years ago by an astrologist predictionist. Read your sign, then repost this in a new bulletin with your zodiac sign and label. If u dont repost this, u will have bad luck for as long as it says in your description!!

VIRGO: The Whore

Dominant in relationships. Sexy. someone loves them right now. Freak in bed. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Intellectual. Attractive. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Hard to forget. Love at first sight. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. Ultimate sexiness.Great kisser. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

SCORPIO: The lover

Can be mean somtimes. EXTREMELY sexy. Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future. Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREAT kisser.) Always get what they want. Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. The sexiest ever….Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

LIBRA: The sex addict

Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique sexiness. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing n Bed..!!! Did I say Amazing in Bed? not the kind of person you wanna fuck with… u might end up crying… the most irresistible.Rare 2 find. Funny. Talkative. Erotic. Smart. loves sports. gets what he/she wants. Loves to be in a relationship –> (never been in one!) 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

ARIES: The Sexiest

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontanious. Not one to fuck with. Erotic. Funny. Take you on trips to the moon in bed. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy. Loves being in long relationships.=) Addictive. Loud. best in bed. 16 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

AQUARIUS: Does it in the water

Trustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being in long-term relationships. Extremely energetic and funny. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock the shit out of u. The best and biggest freak in bed! Considered to be a "G". 2 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

GEMINI: Ultra Sexy

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the fuck out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING.Horny. Freak in Bed. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTABLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

LEO: wild in bed

Great talker. Sexy and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at maken out. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Loyal.Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Great when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

CANCER: Most Amazing Kisser

Very high sex appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak in bed. Spontaneous. Great tellin stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to. 12 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

PISCES: The Piece of ass

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high SEX appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

CAPRICORN: The passionate Lover

Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future. Irrestible, awesome kisser.gets what he or she wants. BY FAR the BEST in BED. Very sexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini’s in sports.Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Loves to be your first. So you’ll never forget. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

TAURUS: The Freak in bed

Aggressive. Freak in bed. Rare to find! Loves being in long relationships Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Sexy as …u no!….. Loves to help people in times of need. Outstanding kisser. Very funny. Awesome personality. Stubborn. Sexual as ……… Most caring person you will ever meet! One of a kind. Not one to fuck with. Are the most sexiest people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

SAGITTARIUS. The Sexy one

Spontaneous. Horny. Freak in Bed. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. The one. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone They meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Most caring person you will ever meet! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not repost.

Favorite day..

September 6th, 2007 by barbarina

I love Thursdays.

But I’m starting to like Sundays as well, now that I have something to look forward to — mass and dinner.

I wonder how long this will last.

Whew!

August 29th, 2007 by barbarina

I just had the longest and most stressful week of my life.

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My new favorite word is "nonreactive."

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Driving a borrowed car is tricky and disturbing.

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Prayers are powerful. I owe my new life to St. Jude and St. Claire.

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I have wonderful friends.

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Sometimes, I can’t help but feel unworthy.

Cheated..

August 11th, 2007 by barbarina

I was at the Museum Cafe the other day, enjoying a glass of caramelish coffee slush while taking advantage of what I think is the only Airborne Access Wifi hotspot in the Ayala Center. When my battery finally died, I decided to powder my nose before heading off to my next appointment.

I was busy combing my hair when a really tall girl came in. Now, I don’t mean to be judgmental, but when one is wearing shorts tiny enough to fit seven-year olds and a top that’s barely there when rain’s pouring like it intends to fill Angat Dam in one hour, I can’t help but think why someone like her would be hanging out in my "work station" (err.. sorry for sounding like a snob).

I was still prettyfying myself when she finished doing her business and she suddenly told me the flush isn’t working in a trying-to-be-feminine-but-actually-masculine voice.

I froze.

A voice in my head was screaming, "YOU ARE SOOOO NOT A GIRL!!" in a stupid Joey sort of way and another voice replied, "Yeah, as if she/he doesn’t know that yet."

As I was just partly thawed, I could only muster, "Oh, okay" as I watched "her" wash "her" hands and I noticed the tell-tale wrist that only confirmed my suspicion.

I don’t mind being around gay people. They’re fun, or at least my gay friends are. But I kinda felt violated having to share a toilet with a someone who’s trying to be something else, as if he/she isn’t a stranger enough. I felt cheated. Naively so.

It’s ironic how one can be so uncomfortable in a comfort room.

Sigh.

close to 3am..

August 5th, 2007 by barbarina

How can something as consuming as anger take so long to eat up something as tiny as I am?

I’m just so tired of it taking small bites without warning, taking its time, and taking advantage of my most vulnerable moments.

It’s not funny anymore.